Gratitude Practice 2020 Day 83: The Ebbing and the Flowing

Today has been different. Not exactly sure why or what has caused this change but it seems that the relentless weighty anxiety cloud that has been hovering so closely and intensely for the last three weeks has somehow temporarily lifted. It's still there swirling and whirling around me and I'm not foolish enough to believe its gone completely but today I have been gifted a tiny and much appreciated worry respite. Could be attributed to the fact I have done ZERO work and I've read exactly zero news today. Could be the natural relief that comes when your work family has truly hustled for the last few weeks and we are as ready as we are ever going to be to open two Emergency Child Care Centers on Monday....GULP! Could be the natural endorphins that come from a much needed deep clean, purge, bleach and organize fest. Could be the batch of chocolate chip cookies I made at 9am and have steadily enjoyed... all...day....long. Could be the spontaneous hugs, kisses and random, "Mama, I love you" that came without condition in a steady stream all day from my tiny human. Could be thanks to a measured dose of spiritual insight that thankfully helped and did not hurt. Not totally sure and don't really need to figure out how this brief peace has arrived but I'll happily take it. Just so very grateful that today has been relatively anxiety and worry free. Grateful for the temporary hall pass especially knowing that we are far from the end of this Covid-19 business and my team is literally walking into the fray at 6:30 am on Monday morning. Grateful to remember that all of these big weighty feelings and worries can be suspended it reduced for a few hours, even if temporarily. Grateful for the haunting and healing words of this song that has been on steady repete in my head, heart and brain. Grateful for both the ebbing and the flowing and for all that I am learning. Grateful for the more sincere desire that is emerging in me to improve my vision and perspective and align it to something far more sacred and holy. Grateful for my growing understanding of Gods love and healing and strengthening power and how I am so quickly and easily seeing evidence of this demonstrated by so many people in my orbit. Grateful to be reminded and today grateful for the gentle respite and temporary relief.